I have to let you go now

A thousand lives I have lived

A thousand times in your arms

A thousand times to taste your sweet kiss

You are not here with me right now

But I hold you as tight as I can

I hold you because I love you

I hold you because I need you

I hold you because I am afraid

I am afraid if I let go you will disappear

I am afraid I will have to live these lives alone

I am afraid that I will stumble and fall without you

But I hold you too tightly

And more for fear than love

I love you too much to let go

I love you too much to lose you

I love you too much to hold you this tightly

Because I love you so much

I have to let you go now

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The things we love the most we tend to hold so tightly we break them, for this reason we need to let them go... because we love them so much.

Death and Fear

I am dead and I am afraid

I died alone and in great fear

I tried hard to believe in things after death but I was confused and distracted by life

I saw the light and was drawn towards it like a moth to a flame

Now I stand on the endless vista of life after death and am confused

I see so many possibilities, so many paths before me

Fear creeps into my spirit once again

Where am I supposed to go, am I going to heaven, am I going to hell

But I could never bring myself to truly believe in either

I am a lost soul, an orphan alone and afraid

Something approaches me from the horizon of unending possibilities

He is great, powerful and he carries the blackness of death

But with each step he takes my fear and loneliness fades bit by bit

He's strange, black and canine but I feel growing peace and happiness

As he smiles warmly and takes my hand I know who he is, Anpu and he is my friend

The last of my fear and confusion vanish with his touch

I feel confident, I feel safe

I am no longer lost or an orphan

With his help and limitless patience I will find my path

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Anpu is the ancient egyptain name for Anubis (which is the greek name for him). One of his most loved duties is being the Patron of Lost Souls and Orphans.